10 Pound Re-Gain

So, here I am, BACK UP TO 347.8 pounds!! I gained back 10 of the 11 pounds that I lost being obedient to God's hunger / satisfaction signals. (See Blog Post from Sunday, July 30, 2017)

 UGGGGGH!! So frustrated with myself. 

Residence Life Training Fall 2017 kicked my butt. I fell victim to my greedy stress-eating habits.

I was avoiding my Weigh Down Accountability Partner because I was full of shame.

I knew that I shouldn't have stuffed myself, but I wanted ALL OF THE FOOD I was eating.

I was NOT listening to anything on All Access and the pounds came pouring back.

I just sent this 347.8 picture to my Accountability Partner (with a lot of shame and guilt) and she sent me this picture:

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FAILED TESTS AND FOOD BINGES

 PLACES MY TEAM AND I ATE DURING THE DAY:

Chipotle

Cane's Chicken

Chick-fil-A

Panda Express

Pei Wei Asian Bistro

Wing Stop

Olive Garden

AT NIGHT AT HOME ALONE,  I BINGED ON THESE ITEMS: 

 Margarita Mix with Powdered Sugar
2 Bottles of Tequila 

(I made/consumed 20+ cocktails)

 Doritos 

King Size Reeces Peanut Butter Cups 

Kit Kat King Sized 

Plain M&Ms

Peanut M&Ms

Twizzlers 

Skittles 

Pour Over Butter Popcorn 

1 Large Pizza 

16-count box of Blueberry Poptarts

Central Grill Cheeseburger and Onion Rings

Cheeseburger and Fries and a Margarita
Margaritas at the Movies

25oz cans of Straw-ber-rita and Mango-rita
....and probably more stuff that I can't recall at the moment!

DINNER OUT WITH A FRIEND:

Below I had a Burger and fries and ALL 6 of these mini-margaritas at LSA Burger on the Denton Square:

(In this photo, I was using my forearms to PUSH my boobs in so they wouldn't look SO HUGE in the picture. I was also so uncomfortable and scrunched into the seat)

I see how I gained 10 pounds in 22 days! 
This type of eating puts so much stress on my body!!

Heavy Photos - Set #1

So, since I started graduate school in August 2010, I've gained 72 pounds. I got here (Denton) in August weighing 300 pounds and by Christmas 2015, I was 372.  I have lots of pics of me "hiding" behind other people over the past 7 years.  I will eventually upload them here as I comb through my external jump drive. Funny, I knew one day I would tell my story through pictures. That day has arrived.

My sister and me in May 2016. 

I was 350 pounds and had just lost 20 pounds doing OA HOW
(Overeaters Anonymous: Honest. Open. Willing)

(Hardly any carbs and NO SUGAR) 

Me at the front desk of Crumley Hall Fall 2015 at around 360 - 370 pounds

I was shoving something in my mouth and had a bag of popcorn tucked under my arm. 

Fall 2015 at 370 pounds

At Chili's getting food for training or final dinner at the end of the year. 

ONE OF TOO MANY FOOD OCCASIONS IN HOUSING AND RESIDENCE LIFE. 

Me at the front desk again, very shocked that someone took a picture of me unannounced. 

I ALWAYS SHY AWAY FROM CAMERAS
About 330 pounds

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Circa 2011 at my friend Wonjee's apartment. 

I was over 300 pounds in this picture.