Weight Update #4

My Marco Polo App posting on Thursday, September 28,2017, to my Exodus Out of Egypt Classmates

This was my weight on Saturday, September 30, 2017 = 331.4 pounds

                              

       

This is what I weigh, JUST NOW, at 8:49 am on Sunday, October 1, 2017

After having a slip up on Friday night, I was 100% determined to be completely obedient to hunger and fullness on Saturday, 9.30.2017 and this was / is my reward. 

              
August 28: 347.8 pounds to September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs,1st week = -7.2 lbs total

September 3: 340.6 pounds to September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd week = -12.4 lbs total

September 10: 335.4 pounds to September 17: 335.6 = +0.2 lbs, 3rd week = -12.2 lbs total

September 17: 335.6 pounds to September 30: 331.4 = - 4.2 lbs, 5th week = -16.4 lbs total
September 30: 331.4 pounds to October 1: 327.8 = -3.6 lbs, 5th week = -20 lbs total

Weight Update #3 and Revelation from Revolution Class

Weight Update #3

• So, all I have thought about this week is the scale going down.
• It was as low as 334.4 and then went up to 335.6 and stayed there SOLIDLY for the rest of the week.
• I weighed on Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday and today, Sunday.
• So, 335.6 is my final weight for today and that means I am up 0.2 pounds.
• Clearly, I am not happy.
• Even BEFORE my final weigh day of today, I stood in the aisle at Walmart and contemplated buying a fat burner because of NOT having FAITH AND TRUST in God to give me the desires of my heart!! (My heart was convicted and I put them back)

August 28: 347.8 pounds / September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs,1st Week = -7.2 lbs total

September 3: 340.6 / September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd Week = -12.4 lbs total

September 10: 335.4 / September 17: 335.6 = +0.2 lbs, 3rd Week = -12.2 lbs total

Revelation from my Revolution Class

• The scale is a stronghold for me
• I am overly focused on self, my body and my body weight
• There are foods that I am eating that have a very strong pull on my heart
• In YCO* Season 2, Episode 10: "Overcoming Bingeing on Sweets," Gwen says that if certain foods are a stronghold for you, you should see if you can sacrifice that food for God

• I am not devoted to, focused on or concerned about being obedient to God to have a relationship with Him, but to see that scale go down (OUCH!!!!)
• I am struggling with being obedient to God because my FOCUS is on making the scale go DOWN

• I am going to follow the Spirit vs. the Flesh calendar for a while and stay off the scales
• I need to focus on building a friendship and relationship with God because that is where my heart must be focused in order for God to give me the desires of my heart
• The scale will never go down and STAY DOWN if I don't have a pure heart for God. 

....AND...the scale going down, CANNOT be my only desire for connecting with God. 

Weight Update #2

• I spoke to my Accountability Partner this past Wednesday, September 6, 2017, and I had the NERVE to be bummed because I had ONLY lost 3.6 pounds since Sunday, September 3rd. (340.6 down to 337)

• I keep thinking, "Since I'm still so heavy, I should be losing like 10 pounds a week!!"
• This is evidence of crazy, warped thinking. 

• I want this weight off NOW, but God is working on the spiritual piece first 
• GOD WANTS ME TO BE OBEDIENT TO HIS GOD-GIVEN HUNGER AND FULLNESS AND NOT BOW DOWN TO ANOTHER FALSE GOD = THE SCALE. 

                       

Wednesday, 9.6.2017 = another 3.6 pounds down, but I was still disappointed that it was not more. Very selfish thinking and expectations. God owes me nothing!!

      

                           

Friday, 9.8.2017 = another 1.0 pounds down, I wanted it to be more than that.

Sunday, 9.10.2017 = 0.6 pounds down


 September 3: 340.6 / September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd Week
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HELPFUL WORDS FROM MY WEIGH DOWN ACCOUNTABILITY PARTNER:

1. We didn't gain all our weight overnight, so we won't lose it overnight

2. It's a good test of my will to see if I will be obedient to hunger and fullness even when the scale won't move or move as quickly as I want

3. Water weight comes off first and then things slow down when it's true fat

4. Keep focusing up on God and the weight will come off! 

August 28: 347.8 pounds / September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs,1st Week

September 3: 340.6 / September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd Week = -12.4 lbs total

Weight Update #1

Wow, even with a slip up this week and being disobedient, God has still blessed me with a 7.2 pound weight loss in ONE WEEK. 

                            August 28th: 347.8 pounds / September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs, 1st Week 

10 Pound Re-Gain

So, here I am, BACK UP TO 347.8 pounds!! I gained back 10 of the 11 pounds that I lost being obedient to God's hunger / satisfaction signals. (See Blog Post from Sunday, July 30, 2017)

 UGGGGGH!! So frustrated with myself. 

Residence Life Training Fall 2017 kicked my butt. I fell victim to my greedy stress-eating habits.

I was avoiding my Weigh Down Accountability Partner because I was full of shame.

I knew that I shouldn't have stuffed myself, but I wanted ALL OF THE FOOD I was eating.

I was NOT listening to anything on All Access and the pounds came pouring back.

I just sent this 347.8 picture to my Accountability Partner (with a lot of shame and guilt) and she sent me this picture:

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FAILED TESTS AND FOOD BINGES

 PLACES MY TEAM AND I ATE DURING THE DAY:

Chipotle

Cane's Chicken

Chick-fil-A

Panda Express

Pei Wei Asian Bistro

Wing Stop

Olive Garden

AT NIGHT AT HOME ALONE,  I BINGED ON THESE ITEMS: 

 Margarita Mix with Powdered Sugar
2 Bottles of Tequila 

(I made/consumed 20+ cocktails)

 Doritos 

King Size Reeces Peanut Butter Cups 

Kit Kat King Sized 

Plain M&Ms

Peanut M&Ms

Twizzlers 

Skittles 

Pour Over Butter Popcorn 

1 Large Pizza 

16-count box of Blueberry Poptarts

Central Grill Cheeseburger and Onion Rings

Cheeseburger and Fries and a Margarita
Margaritas at the Movies

25oz cans of Straw-ber-rita and Mango-rita
....and probably more stuff that I can't recall at the moment!

DINNER OUT WITH A FRIEND:

Below I had a Burger and fries and ALL 6 of these mini-margaritas at LSA Burger on the Denton Square:

(In this photo, I was using my forearms to PUSH my boobs in so they wouldn't look SO HUGE in the picture. I was also so uncomfortable and scrunched into the seat)

I see how I gained 10 pounds in 22 days! 
This type of eating puts so much stress on my body!!

Weigh Down for Two Weeks in July 2017

I was waiting on hunger, listening to All Access, talking to my Accountability Partner and doing well.
11 POUNDS GONE IN THE FIRST WEEK EATING ONLY WHEN HUNGRY AND STOPPING AT SATISFIED 

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

3 days later and 8 pounds down!! 

Sunday, July 30, 2017

11 pounds down in ONE WEEK eating within the context of hunger and fullness

(Yes, I know I needed a pedicure!)