Weight Update #2

• I spoke to my Accountability Partner this past Wednesday, September 6, 2017, and I had the NERVE to be bummed because I had ONLY lost 3.6 pounds since Sunday, September 3rd. (340.6 down to 337)

• I keep thinking, "Since I'm still so heavy, I should be losing like 10 pounds a week!!"
• This is evidence of crazy, warped thinking. 

• I want this weight off NOW, but God is working on the spiritual piece first 
• GOD WANTS ME TO BE OBEDIENT TO HIS GOD-GIVEN HUNGER AND FULLNESS AND NOT BOW DOWN TO ANOTHER FALSE GOD = THE SCALE. 

                       

Wednesday, 9.6.2017 = another 3.6 pounds down, but I was still disappointed that it was not more. Very selfish thinking and expectations. God owes me nothing!!

      

                           

Friday, 9.8.2017 = another 1.0 pounds down, I wanted it to be more than that.

Sunday, 9.10.2017 = 0.6 pounds down


 September 3: 340.6 / September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd Week
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HELPFUL WORDS FROM MY WEIGH DOWN ACCOUNTABILITY PARTNER:

1. We didn't gain all our weight overnight, so we won't lose it overnight

2. It's a good test of my will to see if I will be obedient to hunger and fullness even when the scale won't move or move as quickly as I want

3. Water weight comes off first and then things slow down when it's true fat

4. Keep focusing up on God and the weight will come off! 

August 28: 347.8 pounds / September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs,1st Week

September 3: 340.6 / September 10: 335.4 = -5.2 lbs, 2nd Week = -12.4 lbs total

Confessions

Today has been a challenging day for me spiritually. I am not happy at my job and am ready for something new but I feel very much stuck where I am and keep praying to God to give me peace and to guide my path towards the next position.

I should have stopped eating this candy last night but I just kept on eating it. I did not eat the whole bag and I was obedient to hunger throughout the day when I did eat several pieces, but it was challenging at night for me.....AGAIN.

How I wanted to NOT post this post, but I have committed to be open and honest.

LAST NIGHT: I notice that sometimes I can be really FOCUSED ON BEING OBEDIENT and then other times, I just WILLFULLY decide I am going to be disobedient. I think, "I'll get back on track tomorrow." So, with the candy shown below, I ate a bit too much past full last night after I ate my dinner.

TODAY: I just ate lunch about 30 minutes ago. It was one slice of pepperoni pizza and 1 small pretzel twist from Domino's Pizza. I ate the pretzel and then the slice of pizza and got to the crust, shown below, and I REALLY WANTED TO FINISH IT even though I was clearly full. I looked at it, and remembered how I felt guilty about the candy, but I STILL WANTED TO EAT THE REMAINING CRUST. I ended up throwing it away, but my HEART REALLY WANTED TO EAT IT.

God is not happy if I keep straddling the fence. I need to be "ALL IN." I need to listen to "The 90 Percenter" audio on All Access. This is really not as easy as just following a diet. It requires a heart change and this is TRULY showing me how much my heart has worshiped and idolized the food for far too many years.

On the Border

It's so nice to be able to eat WHATEVER I want when I'm hungry. That is such a blessing from God.

Normally, I would have consumed two or three baskets of chips, a whole fried Chimichanga, 2 large margaritas and an order of beef Empanadas.

But tonight, my dinner was just:

3 tortilla chips, broken up like Gwen says to do
1 Empanada
A glass of pineapple juice (only drank a few sips between bites)

I prayed before I ate and asked God to slow me down so I would not eat too quickly and that I would stop when satisfied. 

 I took 3 chips from the basket

 I broke each chip into small pieces, dipped them in salsa, put a bit of salt on each one and enjoyed my 3 chips. 

My order of empandas came out, I picked out the prettiest one and ate it. I was satisfied when I was done and knew that I didn't need to eat anymore. 

Asked for a "to go" box for the remaining 4 to eat another one when the next hunger hits. Also took my juice out in a "to go" cup. 

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Today's Food

10:00AM: 1 cup of Korean Pho today for breakfast with 2 TBS of white rice

2:00PM: 1 large Nectarine and 1/2 of a dinner roll

6:00PM: On the Border

I spent hours watching All Access and did some bible reading and worked in my Weigh Down Revolution Workbook. 

Now, I'm heading out to the movies. Goodnight!! 

Today's Food

So, Gwen says that the heavier you are, the LESS often your body will get hungry because it knows it has LOTS of fat to burn and it may get hungry once, maybe twice per day. She is correct. At 340 pounds, I find that I may get TRULY hungry, once, maybe twice per day.

I have been drinking protein shakes with fruit for my first meal of the day because I found a protein shake that I love (long time ago) and because I am lazy and it's easy to just throw almond milk, bananas and protein powder in my Nutribullet.

For dinner, I eat whatever the heck I want, but ONLY enough to take away the growl. Here is what I consumed today:

1.  2:00pm is when hunger first hit: 1 Protein shake: 25 grams of protein powder scoop, 1/2 banana, 1 cup almond milk, 1 cup water. With 1/2 peach and 2 chile spiced mango slices from Trader Joe's
2. 8:30pm is when hunger hit again: 1/2 of a quesadilla half (shown below) - some random quesadilla from Trader Joe's
3. It is 9:24pm right now and I feel the growl coming on again. I will probably eat the other 1/2 before going to bed or watching some t.v. 

HOW CAN YOU SURVIVE ON SO LITTLE FOOD? 

 Exactly what I thought, but it takes so little to actually satisfy me. I've been overfeeding myself for years!! 

Update #1: Full growl right now at 9:29pm and I just ate the little left over portion on my plate above. I will sit for a bit and see if the growl comes back and then will take a few bites of the other 1/2. I will eat slowly to make sure to not eat past satisfaction. I don't like feeling stuffed.

Update #2: I was VERY hungry and ended up eating the other 1/2 like I said I would. 

Weight Update #1

Wow, even with a slip up this week and being disobedient, God has still blessed me with a 7.2 pound weight loss in ONE WEEK. 

                            August 28th: 347.8 pounds / September 3: 340.6 = -7.2 lbs, 1st Week