I should have stopped eating this candy last night but I just kept on eating it. I did not eat the whole bag and I was obedient to hunger throughout the day when I did eat several pieces, but it was challenging at night for me.....AGAIN.
How I wanted to NOT post this post, but I have committed to be open and honest.
LAST NIGHT: I notice that sometimes I can be really FOCUSED ON BEING OBEDIENT and then other times, I just WILLFULLY decide I am going to be disobedient. I think, "I'll get back on track tomorrow." So, with the candy shown below, I ate a bit too much past full last night after I ate my dinner.
TODAY: I just ate lunch about 30 minutes ago. It was one slice of pepperoni pizza and 1 small pretzel twist from Domino's Pizza. I ate the pretzel and then the slice of pizza and got to the crust, shown below, and I REALLY WANTED TO FINISH IT even though I was clearly full. I looked at it, and remembered how I felt guilty about the candy, but I STILL WANTED TO EAT THE REMAINING CRUST. I ended up throwing it away, but my HEART REALLY WANTED TO EAT IT.
God is not happy if I keep straddling the fence. I need to be "ALL IN." I need to listen to "The 90 Percenter" audio on All Access. This is really not as easy as just following a diet. It requires a heart change and this is TRULY showing me how much my heart has worshiped and idolized the food for far too many years.
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